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Proving of Fagus sylvatica C 30 - Nov/Dec 1996
The proving of this remedy - unknown to provers, supervisors and coordinator - was conducted with the help of three provers: female, age 36, midwife; male, age 36, homeopath and nurse; male, age 38, homeopath. The proving began on 25.11.1996 and ended on 9.1.97. The substance of the remedy was provided by the magazine Homoeopathic Links, the Tree Proving Project.
We present you a summary here, which gives the major items and symptoms of the original
proving in the exact words used and with no interpretation. For a full proving text,
please see a few pages downwards.
relaxed and feeling good
very relaxed and well off
full of energy and activity during
feeling well and strong
unusal lot of energy and good mood
Feel extremely well before going to sleep (like it was as a child).
Feel very well despite all the symptoms, feel clearer, and clean inside
desire to do something, against my habit no desire to read, listen to funky music
vivid and abrupt movements when I talk
gestures with the hands when talking
much more movements, as if wound up
voice: louder, stronger
talks enthusiastically about music
Behave very strong in front of a patient who is stealing my time. Donīt want to be taken advantage of.
During weekend my father tries to persuade me to treat several people in his village while Iīm there. But I stress that my practice is in Bonn and they should go there, if they want to talk to me.
talking a lot about work and doing something great in homeopathy
wife asks, whether this remedy could make you manic
felt very much in my centre, did my own thing, very clear.
very busy day, but with a good mood (unusual)
feel very factual, but warm, open and clear
proving fades: the enlivening energy ceases
the remedy brought me a strong and clear energy, which definitely was not my own. It felt like "boroughed" energy. When it left (after 4.12.) I almost fell ill, and it took a few days to recover to my state before the proving. Felt as if I had to repay the energy.
open, funny, good mood, working a lot with no pressure of time, emotionally open
very irritable in discussions, about trifles; but not complicated, clear, rational, sometimes sarcastic; emotional distance; seems sad, but very concentrated in work
very tired this morning, wants to stay in bed
extremely tired, would like to go to bed
feel introverted and thoughtfull
feels stiff, donīt really wake up
in the morning: slow and dull, thoughtful
Strong wish for cleanliness and order. Paint the kitchen.
very calm in a lot of stress, not as sarcastic as I use to be; but still feel disgust against this life in a hospital, the hardness, the secretions, the doctors, the nurses, the torture of the patients. Wish to just go away. at the same time I do my work better than usually.
very irritable when waking, esp by noises
See everything and other people from a different perspective. No problem to talk about feelings
Contact with people much better.
easier in contact with people
> in company
feels as if I had to do something, to go somewhere
in evening: harder than before, easier hurt und hurting, more distance, withdrawn
in the evening feeling a bit distanced, alone, easily hurt
extremely forgetful, far away in thoughts; but not tired and mentally keen; irritable and talking little
easily hurt, feeling guilty, withdrawn
* in a homeop. seminar, leader is irritated. On a staircase a lady, coming too late, says: "Every break is a disturbance." meaning, every break in moving aggr. her pain in abdomen
* a woman is in labour with her 3rd child. I (the prover is midwife as profession!) ask her to go to hospital, since child is in breech presentation. There walking through long winding floors. After leaving hospital looking back, I see water coming out of the windows and think: Oh, now the amniotic sac has burst.
* dream: in Africa with my girl-friend, want to meet her husband. Walking confusedly around the main station. Getting back to our luggage two white joungsters are just stealing it. I run towards them and beat them. They want to take us to our things, but I suspect this to be a trap.
* dream: familiy meeting. Hugging my sister and my sister-in law I find both pregnant. My sister-in law seems to be happy, even though itīs her 6th child.
* of a childrenīs game with colours and forms having cosmological implications
slept like a stone, very stiff after rising, dull feeling in forehead during morning
* with daughter and someone else in a desert, looking at a state of hornets, which is exposed there, hanging on sticks, to show people, that hornets are not dangerous. Next to this we see a transport belt, which moves cooked scampi, but at a closer look they are hornets, a delicatess in that country
* in a room with many homoepaths from all different schools. Klaus Kinsky (german actor) comes in on horseback and goes to next room to copy. I ask the people to go outside and play Boule
* repeated: Together with friend, two of them getting some illegal money, while the rest of the group seperates from them, especially me. I donīt want anything criminal. I just watch from the distance what happens to them: They fight about the money and cheat each other until they shoot each other. I see this from near and the shots just miss me. Disgust and sadness
* sitting in a summerhouse in my parents’ village, which is used only by men. The men drink their beers whereas I drink water. I tell my father, we have to go, since mother wants to go to town. He: I cannot jump anytime she calls. There are more important things than to squander around town. Iīm bored by the fat old men and suggest playing cards, which they approve of. I lose every game, but donīt mind. One of them is angry with me, since I cannot play properly. Remind my father again of my motherīs wish, but all men shout at me, that I always take the womenīs position and shouldnīt take these things so serious. I donīt say anything. See my mother and my sister coming. They have dressed up nicely and go to town alone. My father gets angry about this. Then I leave the place to go to sleep. In front of the house I see a friend of my fatherīs lying drunk and vomiting heavily (red stuff). Vomits all over his new red coat. I go home.
* Adventures with an elder man with little hair. Ends near the house of my parents. My father is reading something to do with my journey with this old man. We have ice-skates and go around my fathers sofa, which now stands in the middle of the ice. I start to weep, while the old man run very near to me, giving comforting physical contact on my back. My father just says I shouldnīt behave like a weakling, but this does not impress me and I go on weeping. Leaving the old man give his camera with pictures of our journey to me
* (with erection): of my first love, I sit in a chair, she comes and we start to caress us. She wants more, but I donīt.
* a mother cares for her child jealously
* I sit in nice company and say (as a joke): "If you donīt have a desert, take your right neighbour." Everybody laughs a lot and praise my knowledge of English sayings. I am amused, but donīt mention, that I invented the sentence.
* I am a child. My father puts fire to our house, I think to get rid of my mother. I panic and run to call the firemen. Concentrate on their number 112, while running and FEAR, they will be too late or not at all because they donīt care. Then I come back to the house and find that the fire is over. They have put it there to remove one of the walls. Iīm very relieved.
* unusal: Iīm a kind of sergeant of the army and order my boys, send them on watch. I enjoy my clarity, decidedness and fairness. Itīs a mood of strong male understanding, clear, strong and fair. (very unusual for me)
comm.: The dream of being in the army (clear, fair, strong, male, ordering) gives the best impression of the general feeling with this remedy.
* Kid have removed all dust-bins in the neighbourhood and put wood into the exhaust of
one BMW, which explodes therefore (the exhaust). I feel a kind of satisfaction about this.
extremely cold during morning, esp. feet, > hot shower
very tired during afternoon
extremely tired, have to force myself to stay awake
feels like having not slept afterwards
slept well until 4.00, didnīt sleep after that or only superficially
all > after shower
Very heavy feeling. Weak inside.
Tiredness > in open air
donīt get tired, when going by train or sitting in lectures
warmer than before, warm feet
change of temperature sensations
physically remarkable was the changing sensation of temperature, as if my whole system
of warmth-regulation was upset, combined with rheumatic pains in different joints, which
unfortunately stayed long after the proving.
toothache and earache gone, while heaviness and tiredness of eyes comes again
morning: tension on scalp, from forehead to back of head
steady pressure in forehead
light tension in forehead
dull feeling in head all the time; feeling like a ribbon from forehead to back of head
sclera less yellow than usual
dryness of eyes, have to rub often, but no redness
eyes feel heavy and as if deep in head with rings
strong pain in both orbitals extending like a board 1 inch thick back through the skull to the back of the head, light pain in ears as well and in molars upper rights side ext. into jaws
in the morning pain and dryness in eyes
Eyes heavy and tired during whole day
lid feel heavy, red
Mouth
drawing sensation on different teeth, changing
teeth: crowns on right side of mouth had been sensitive to cold, now stopped
Face
after rising until noon: feeling of warmth on the face
Find that there are a few pustules on my upper lip
Throat
pain in throat at left tonsill
pain in throat at right tonsill, no pain on left
pain on tonsils, nose blocked
Stomach
little nausea, when waking up, > breakfast
pressure before breakfast until afternoon, strong in afternoon, then gone
despite pain in abdomen very good appetite
can eat but little, feel satiated quickly
strong desire for black tea during proving, which I usually drink, but not 1― liter
per day, like now
Abdomen
flatulence during whole day, no pain
griping pain in abdomen, < pressure, ext. from left to right, after eating red cabbage
eat a meal of potatoes and red cabbage afterwards => enormous flatulence
abdominal pain stops during car drive; feel very well
have to remove belt which >
strong smelling flatulence during evening, but > abd. pain
I can eat but little bits and feel totally full afterwards with an unpleasantly thick abdomen.
> after stool
abdomen feels bloated, loosing weight
Urinary
more desire to urinate, with little urine, can feel prostate gl. and bladder
Back
feeling as if sacrum would break when walking
Pressure on lower coccyx during whole day; < sitting, only > sitting very erect;
wake up with stiffness of lower back; > motion
stiffness in back again, < stooping
Find that there are a few pustules on lower back
Chest
fast heartbeat probably due to some black-tea
Extr
Pain under right shoulderblade, stinging, < moving
drawing pain on left shoulder and left knee
feeling as if right leg would go to sleep, drawing and tickling feeling on the inner side of the upper leg, ext. to heel
but stiffness of muscles in shoulder-, hip-, foot-, hand-articulation of right side
shoulder and hip joints right side pain during whole day
dull pain around right knee
knee cracks when squating
when going to bed: feet cold and damp
Cold feet during whole day, ext. up the calves, > warm socks
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Full proving text:
Casuistry analysis project Trees
Proving of an unknown tree-remedy Nov/Dec 1996
A. one prover female; age 36; midwife; last treated with Ac-phos
B. one prover male; age 36; homeopath and nurse
C. one prover male; age 38; homeopath
all provers personally known to their supervisors, all three supervisors experienced homeopaths.
all proversī and supervisorsī native language German
all provers and supervisors received translations of the projectīs introduction text and protocol
unfortunately they did not really stick to it
beginning of the proving: 25.11.1996
summarizing meeting: 9.1.97
Summary of the report of prover A
25.11.
first dose: half an hour later stinging pain under right shoulderblade, when lifted NS 1
second dose: still a bit of stinging, ext. arm
third dose: stinging vanishes during evening, only to be felt with certain movements of the arm
mind: whole day relaxed and feeling good
26.11.
4-6 p..m. worst 5 p.m.: extr. feeling as if right leg would go to sleep, drawing and tickling feeling on the inner side of the upper leg, ext. to heel NS 2
extr.: no stinging in shoulderblade any more, but stiffness of muscles in shoulder-, hip-, foot-, hand-articulation of right side NS 3
mind: desire to do something, against my habit no desire to read, listen to funky music
27.11.
stomach: little nausea when waking up, amel. breakfast NS 4
dream: in a homeop. seminar, leader is irritated. On a staircase a lady, coming too late, says: "Every break is a disturbance." meaning, every break in moving aggr. her pain in abdomen.
12 a.m.: NS 2 again
my husband also has stiffness of muscles in right shoulder, ext. arm
stool: soft OS 1
28.11.
teeth: crowns on right side of mouth had been sensitive to cold, now stopped CS 1
stool: OS 1
mind: very relaxed and well off
29.11.
extr.: shoulder and hip joints right side pain during whole day
stomach: pressure before breakfast until afternoon, strong in afternoon, then gone NS 5
abdomen: flatulence during whole day, no pain OS 2
1.12.
dream: a woman is in labour with her 3rd child. I (the author is midwife as
profession!) ask her to go to hospital, since child is in breech presentation. There
walking through long winding floors. After leaving hospital looking back, I see water
coming out of the windows and think: Oh, now the amniotic sac has burst.
4.12.
dream: in Africa with my girl-friend, want to meet her husband. Walking confusedly
around the main station. Getting back to our luggage two white joungsters are just
stealing it. I run towards them and beat them. They want to take us to our things, but I
suspect this to be a trap.
8.12.
my husband remarks that I make vivid and abrupt movements when I talk NS 6
10.12.
back: feeling as if sacrum would break when walking
11.12.
female: beginning of menstr. in proper time, with low drawing pains in sacrum, amel. heat
12.12.
dream: familiy meeting. Hugging my sister and my sister-in law I find both pregnant. My
sister-in law seems to be happy, even though itīs her 6th child.
summary:
For me it was most striking, that I felt full of energy and activity during the
proving. I was more open towards others, and others met me friendly and happy. All pains
of joints and muscles were only on he right side.
Remarks of supervisor (female) in addition to reported symptoms:
25.11. voice: louder, stronger, more energy
26.11. mind: talks enthusiastically about music, more vitality
2.12. mind: gestures with the hands when talking
much more movements, as if wound up
eyes: sclera less yellow than usual CS
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Summary of the report of prover B
25.11.
7.30 taking first dose, very tired this morning, wants to stay in bed
very cold an hour later
10.30 fast heartbeat probably due to some black-tea
12.00 taking second globule
15.00 not cold anymore
17.00 taking third globule
18.40 griping pain in abdomen, < pressure, ext. from left to right, after eating red cabbage NS
pain stays, have to remove belt which >
eat a meal of potatoes and red cabbage afterwards => enormous flatulence NS
20.45 abdominal pain stops during car drive; feel very well
26.11.
Dream: of a childrens game with colours and forms having cosmological implications
slept like a stone, very stiff after rising, dull feeling in forehead during morning OS
extremely cold during morning, esp. feet, NS
> hot shower OS
12.00 lunch of same cabbage as yesterday with no symptoms
15.00 same abdominal pain as yesterday ES
very tired during afternoon
more desire to urinate, with little urine, can feel prostate gl. and bladder AS
strong smelling flatulence during evening, but > abd. pain NS
27.11.
Dream: with daughter and someone else in a desert, looking at a state of hornets, which is exposed there, hanging on sticks, to show people, that hornets are not dangerous. Next to this we see a transport belt, which moves cooked scampi, but at a closer look they are hornets, a delicatess in that country.
Dream: in a room with many homoepaths from all different schools. Klaus Kinsky (german actor) comes in on horseback and goes to next room to copy. I ask the people to go outside and play Boule.
after rising until noon: feeling of warmth on the face NS
20.00 extremely tired, have to force myself to stay awake. NS
dryness of eyes, have to rub often, but no redness NS
sleep like a stone again
28.11.
Eyes still a bit dry, otherwise no problems
Around noon irritable OS
29.11.
feeling well and strong
15.00 extremely tired, would like to go to bed OS
much better later on walk in wood
back in car and home tired again, yawning a lot,
eyes feel heavy and as if deep in head with rings NS
stay tired during whole evening, but still able to work "I know what I want"
30.11.
3.45 wake up hungry, but donīt eat. NS
feels like having not slept afterwards
pain in throat at left tonsill NS
Dream, repeated: Together with friend, two of them getting some illegal money, while the rest of the group seperates from them, especially me. I donīt want anything criminal. I just watch from the distance what happens to them: They fight about the money and cheat each other until they shoot each other. I see this from near and the shots just miss me. Disgust and sadness.
8.00 pain in throat at right tonsill, no pain on left NS
4.00 - 8.30 strong pain in both orbitals extending like a board 1 inch thick back through the skull to the back of the head, light pain in ears as well and in molars upper rights side ext. into jaws NS
after getting up throat pain is gone as well as heaviness and tiredness of eyes
toothache and earache stay
12.00 toothache and earache gone, while heaviness and tiredness of eyes comes again
1.12.96
slept well until 4.00, didnīt sleep after that or only superficially AS
in the morning pain and dryness in eyes AS
11.00 dull headache in back of head for one hour NS
evening: very tired
generell feeling: feel introverted and thoughtfull, esp. about my daughter and my practice. Strong wish for cleanliness and order. Paint the kitchen. Harmonious feeling in evening, read a lot. Feel extremely well before going to sleep (like it was as a child). Feel very well despite all the symptoms, feel clearer, and clean inside. NS
See everything and other people from a different perspective. No problem to talk about feelings.
Cold feet during whole day, ext. up the calves, > warm socks
2.12.
morning: tension on scalp, from forehead to back of head NS
tired only in evening, but very funny and joking
Dream: sitting in a summerhouse in my parents’ village, which is used only by men.
The men drink their beers whereas I drink water. I tell my father, we have to go, since
mother wants to go to town. He: I cannot jump anytime she calls. There are more important
things than to squander around town. Iīm bored by the fat old men and suggest playing
cards, which they approve of. I lose every game, but donīt mind. One of them is angry
with me, since I cannot play properly. Remind my father again of my motherīs wish, but
all men shout at me, that I always take the womenīs position and shouldnīt take these
things so serious. I donīt say anything. See my mother and my sister coming. They have
dressed up nicely and go to town alone. My father gets angry about this. Then I leave the
place to go to sleep. In front of the house I see a friend of my fatherīs lying drunk and
vomiting heavily (red stuff). Vomits all over his new red coat. I go home.
3.12.
Eyes heavy and tired during whole day
sleep from 16.00-17.30 OS
all > after shower
20.30 dull pain around right knee AS
4.12.
steady pressure in forehead
Dream: Adventures with an elder man with little hair. Ends near the house of my parents. My father is reading something to do with my journey with this old man. We have ice-skates and go around my fathers sofa, which now stands in the middle of the ice. I start to weep, while the old man run very near to me, giving comforting physical contact on my back. My father just says I shouldnīt behave like a weakling, but this does not impress me and I go on weeping. Leaving the old man give his camera with pictures of our journey to me.
2. Dream (with erection): of my first love, I sit in a chair, she comes and we start to
caress us. She wants more, but I donīt.
5.12.
Very heavy feeling. Weak inside. Contact with people much better. CS
6.12.
I can eat but little bits and feel totally full afterwards with an unpleasantly thick abdomen. NS
Have reduced weight. NS
8.12.
I can eat but little bits and feel totally full afterwards with an unpleasantly thick abdomen. ES
> after stool
light tension in forehead
9.12.
no pressure in forehead anymore, just a little tension
Behave very strong in front of a patient who is stealing my time CS
Donīt want to be taken advantage of.
During weekend my father tries to persuade me to treat several people in his village
while Iīm there. But I stress that my practice is in Bonn and they should go there, if
they want to talk to me. CS
11.12.
slept superficially, get up very tired OS
Tiredness > in open air
12.12.
Pressure on lower coccyx during whole day NS
< sitting, only > sitting very erect
could not find out if itīs from the skin (pimple) or from the bone, but suppose itīs
the skin, since I had an inflammation of the root of hair under right arm during last five
days and before that under left arm also without pus, just red, swollen and painful OS
13.12.
painful spot on coccyx still there
14.00-15.00 glutinous secretion in right nostril, not able to remove it OS
15.00 suddenly changing into clear fluid, which I notice when dropping from nose NS
repeated several times during afternoon
drawing pain in right upper molar NS
< shaking head
with this goes a taste like iron NS
the spot on coccyx feels more like a bruise today
14.12.
still feeling of bruise on coccyx
very calm in a lot of stress, not as sarcastic as I use to be CS
but still feel disgust against this life in a hospital, the hardness, the secretions, the doctors, the nurses, the torture of the patients. Wish to just go away.
at the same time I do my work better than usually CS
in evening dance: very tires, but nevertheless dance until 2 in the night and have fun
15.12.
usual secretion in nose and mouth again. After rising a lot of dried up secretion in right nostril
drawing sensation on different teeth, changing NS
On this day I feel that the proving has definitely ended.
Remarks of supervisor (male) in addition to reported symptoms:
25.11.
despite pain in abdomen very good appetite
wife asks, whether this remedy could make you manic
26.11.
very irritable when waking, esp by noises RS
wish to throw alarm out of the window
feels stiff, donīt really wake up
27.11.
4.00 wake up hungry, but donīt eat and go to sleep again
29.11.
15.00 extremely tired, would like to go to bed
bad concentration, have to force myself to mental work OS
more appetite than usual
think I put on more weight
23.00 fallen into deep sleep, lying on back, which is unusual
1.12.96
dull feeling in head all the time
feeling like a ribbon from forehead to back of head
2.12.
lid feel heavy, red
4.12.
can eat but little, feel satiated quickly
abdomen feels bloated, loosing weight
5.12.
Very weak feeling inside
> in company
feels as if I had to do something, to go somewhere
going to sleep: restless because of palpitation, have smoked before OS
11.12.
problems with sleep, as before the proving, wake up easily RS
general feeling:
felt very much in my centre, did my own thing, very clear.
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Full Report of prover C
week before proving: ES
sinusitis < right side, pain over root of nose ES
cold feet when sitting long ES
under much pressure by hom. cases, want to cry but cannot ES
like to stay up long in the night and walk through the quiet house ES
pruritus on genitals ES
24.11.
wake up with stiffness of lower back ES
> motion ES
depressive mood ES
25.11.
7.20 pain on tonsils, nose blocked, stiffness in back like yesterday ES
7.25 take first dose of 3 globules
14.20 very busy day, but with a good mood RS
14.25 take second dose
23.30 take third dose of 3 gl.
whole day: warmer than before, warm feet CS
remarkebly good mood
in the evening feeling a bit distanced, alone, easily hurt RS
26.11.
wake up without the stiffness and with open nose CS
Dream: a mother cares for her child jealously
like my work
23.00 unusal lot of energy and good mood CS
27.11.
stiffness in back again, < stooping RS
Dream: I sit in nice company and say (as a joke): "If you donīt have a desert, take your right neighbour." Everybody laughs a lot and praise my knowledge of English sayings. I am amused, but donīt mention, that I invented the sentence.
9.00 - 10.00 enormous itching on small toe of left foot NS
12.30 drawing pain on left shoulder and left knee NS
20.30 pain in shoulder gone, pain in knee still there < stairs OS
23.00 knee cracks when squating NS
(this symptom stayed until now - March)
28.11.
0.30 when going to bed: feet cold and damp NS
29.11.
change of temperature sensations NS
donīt get tired, when going by train or sitting in lectures CS
Mind: feel very factual, but warm, open and clear
30.11.
Dream: I am a child. My father puts fire to our house, I think to get rid of my mother.
I panic and run to call the firemen. Concentrate on their number 112, while running and
FEAR, they will be too late or not at all because they donīt care. Then I come back to
the house and find that the fire is over. They have put it there to remove one of the
walls. Iīm very relieved.
1.12.
Find that there are a few pustules on my upper lip OS
and on lower back NS
3.12.
Dream, unusal: Iīm a kind of sergeant of the army and order my boys, send them on watch. I enjoy my clarity, decidedness and fairness. Itīs a mood of strong male understanding, clear, strong and fair. (very unusual for me)
Dream: Kid have removed all dust-bins in the neighbourhood and put wood into the
exhaust of one BMW, which explodes therefore (the exhaust). I feel a kind of satisfaction
about this.
4.12.
proving fades: the enlivening energy ceases
I feel as before, heavier, more mineral-like
=> end of proving
I go on explaining my symptoms for a few days nevertheless
5.+ 6.12. no change
7.12.
got up very late (9.30), tired and cold
feel, this is not the remedy, but my own energy
headache, pressing on forehead and back of head
Iīm easily cold but also too warm
little appetite or hunger
listless, tired
no desire for black tea anymore
8.12.
like yesterday, but <
head very heavy
desire to lie down,
no appetite
general feeling: the remedy brought me a strong and clear energy, which definitely was not my own. It felt like "boroughed" energy. When it left (after 4.12.) I almost fell ill, and it took a few days to recover to my state before the proving. Felt as if I had to repay the energy.
The dream of being in the army (clear, fair, strong, male, ordering) gives the best impression of the general feeling with this remedy.
strong desire for black tea during proving, which I usually drink, but not 1― liter per day, like now
physically remarkable was the changing sensation of temperature, as if my whole system
of warmth-regulation was upset, combined with rheumatic pains in different joints, which
unfortunately stayed long after the proving.
Remarks of supervisor (female) in addition to reported symptoms (no original text), to a great extent personal observations of the supervisor, not so much statements of the prover:
25.11.
during the day: open, funny, good mood, working a lot with no pressure of time CS
emotionally open
in evening: harder than before, easier hurt und hurting, more distance, withdrawn RS
26.11.
in the morning: slow and dull, thoughtful RS
much energy etc. like yesterday
easier in contact with people CS
27.11.
looks pale and tired in morning
afterwards like days before
28.11.
like before
29.11.
extremely forgetful, far away in thoughts NS
but not tired and mentally keen
irritable and talking little RS
30.11.
easily hurt, feeling guilty, withdrawn
talking a lot about work and doing something great in homeopathy
1.12.
thinking a lot about being good enough (in work), subjects of being great - small NS
enthusiastic - depressed
very irritable in discussions, about trifles
but not complicated, clear, rational, sometimes sarcastic
emotional distance
2.12.
seems sad, but very concentrated in work
4.12.
good mood and energy like before until evening
evening: sighing a lot RS
energy very heavy, like before proving
5.12.
looking pale and tired, hands cold RS
resignation regarding work RS
6.12.
mood and energy as before proving, high energy seems gone
sighs more, plans more, talks less than during proving
